'The Nick Cannon Present' host shared a touching memorial to his son, a yr after his passing from a mind tumor.
Nick Cannon posted an emotional tribute to his son Zen, a yr after he died from a mind tumor at solely 5 months outdated. The TV host, 42, shared a photograph of himself cradling Zen in addition to just a few different images of Zen on Instagram, as he recalled how troublesome the day he died was. He revealed that he had a sleepless night time earlier than the “painful anniversary” of his loss of life on Monday, December 5. “Mentally and Spiritually I’m damaged,” he wrote. “Been tossing and turning all night time, and as a lot as I do know I would like relaxation, final night time I couldn’t sleep in any respect.”
Nick referred to as the day that Zen died the “hardest day of [his] life,” and spoke about how he nonetheless has so many feelings following his son’s sudden and surprising loss of life. “Dropping a toddler needs to be the heaviest, most darkish and depressive experiences that I'll by no means recover from. A mix of guilt, ache, and sorrow is what I suppress day by day,” he wrote.
The Masked Singer host additionally spoke about how a lot he tries to share and unfold love and mentioned he wished his son might’ve skilled it extra throughout his quick lifetime. “I really like massive and I really like with my total Coronary heart and Soul and I simply want my Little Man might’ve felt extra of that love whereas he was right here on Earth,” he wrote.
Nick additionally revealed that a religious chief had instructed him he was “within the midst of one of the vital difficult seasons of [his] life,” and he spoke about his latest hospitalization for pneumonia. He mentioned that he might use prayers whereas wanting again on the loss of life of his son. ” I can positively use these prayers proper now,” he wrote with a damaged coronary heart emoji. “Proceed to Peacefully Relaxation My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally.”
Zen was Nick’s seventh youngster. He fathered the child with mannequin Alyssa Scott in June 2021. All year long, Alyssa has shared a variety of heartbreaking tributes to her son. Practically a yr after their son’s loss of life, Nick and Alyssa introduced that they had been anticipating one other youngster, his twelfth. She shared a nude photoshoot to share the information. “This can be a MIRACLE & a BLESSING,” she wrote within the caption.
Alyssa has made her Instagram non-public, however earlier than she did she shared a transferring memorial for Zen in August. “My physique feels it. I’ve been on the verge of tears the previous few days. Attempting to maintain a ahead momentum,” she wrote. “I miss my boy.”